Hurt me, if you can

As I was saying, I am not showing any face in these photographs. If the models remains anonymous they can be anybody. At least, anybody with slim bodies :D
These images were not planned, therefore any idea or emotion the viewer may get is are on his own experience. Sometimes art does not have to have an intention.

More or less the only direction I gave to the model was something like: " let's image we dance or fight but at the same time were stick to each other"
It was no as fluid as I would have liked, for each picture the timer was set to 10 seconds (the camera default). In many cases once I felt we had a good position we had to hold it till the camera fired.

Tattooed girl No. 1

They and me

Two bodies.
I have not written anything in very long time, just poems about a monster. Nothing related to photography. I have bought books which I don't read and I have not been eating healthy lastly. But I feel good.

I am not native English speaker and despite that I rather write in English than in Spanish. Not sure why.

During the last two months I have been working in old photos. I take photos, many photos but  I don't publish them on my Instagram neither Facebook page. The images in these social media are no appreciated as they should be. Anyway, I have a small series about two bodies interacting, that was the main idea. I never really developed it so I could not say it is concluded as it never actually was started.

I am not ashamed of my body but I don't like to show myself in photographs and as for the girls they had no issue in show their bodies. I will be sharing more of them during next days. Now is time to sleep.

Piercing in the navel. 2016. 50 x 50cm.

Day 47, Dancer

Day 34, A poem

Day 22, My neighbour coming

Day 19, My hand

I almost give up today. It was 10:30 pm and still had no take any single photo during the whole day. But No!, I won't surrender so I picked up my camera, walked around my flat looking for something to take but I did not find something interesting. Suddenly I remembered a photo I took a while after cut my hand while cooking so I decided to make a scary photo of it.

A small cut during while cooking:

Day 9, Inspired by a master

A dinosaur and garlic. Believe me or not this picture was inspired by the famous image of the pepper taken by Edward Weston.

 

I took first just the garlic but was too simple for my taste so had to make t more personal and the best way to do it was being playful. I don't take picture of death animals only ;)

Garlic, 2016

Edward Weston

Day 8, Fears, illusions and happiness

It was 10:30 and still had no taken any picture for today. Honestly, I had a total laziness all day but I I have decided not to fail this time and make a picture a day, whatever it takes.
I did no want to go out to the street and try to snap some street scene, instead I did what I like the most and I needed to do, continue with my project The solitude of delirium so I took my book a little bird body and start to compose the scene. Then I took my camera and start to compose and try to find a good angle for it. Not an easy job, it may look easy have something photogenic and be sure good photos will come out but it is not.

Photography is more than just point and shoot, in many cases is a catharsis or self therapy process, in more simple words a way to express our fears, illusions and happiness and learn to live with them.

From the moment we decide to frame something and take a picture of it, we are granting some importance to that piece of reality over its surroundings. Why we choose that scene depends in our experiences and way of thinking. Why I choose a dead bird? because for me represent the end of an dream, the bird that never learnt to fly, a broken illusion. However tragedies are part of life and deal with them is what make us stronger.

The eternal dream.

The above image was taken specifically for this 365 project. The image below is a behind the scene of the shooting for the The solitude of delirium 

Day 3, Travelling...

Today I made a small trip:

Day 2, when the picture is a gift

Today the photo was thanks to my son. At lunch he finished before than me so he took this little angry dog and put in front of me saying " he will watch you until you finish all your food" It make smile and I tough it could be a good photo. I took only three, one horizontal and two verticals all at 1/30 and f.8. and I picked the horizontal as my picture for today. So thank you my son ;)

Later we went to play to a park and again I took my camera to try to catch a better image or see if I could come out with something interesting. During our game he took a piece of a branch and start to act like a ninja, that was really cool, look at him immersed on his imagination fighting imaginary ninjas.
I  took exactly 189 images (due to the burst mode) but my chosen one is this:

Here you can see the other 4 that I like too.

Trying to not f*ck it this time

In my way back to home after have photographed the concert I remembered that once I started a 365 project with my mobile phone. It started well as I was excited about it and was my first smartphone with a decent camera. However, after the initial excitement, I struggled to do interesting images without relying  on the effects or filter that all camera apps have. I did not want to make some pretty images just because of a stupid filter or app but somehow I started to like and wanted to take photos of a fake world, that one with always blue skies, perfect sunsets and nice tonalities but all thanks to a filter. That was not me, well was in part but was not the direction where I wanted that my creativity and art go. So I stopped it.

Now I am carrying my camera again with me everywhere and I decided to take the challenge again and even more, will do it in color. Yes for most of it I will not make any conversion to black and white. If you don't leave our comfort zone then I think you should not call yourself and artist or a creative person. Think about it.

A calm street.

Being a lazy creative person

I have not been taking photos lastly, focused mostly on my poems and other non-photography matters I started to feel myself more as a hobbyist than as a photographer. That thought has been around two months in my head until yesterday that there was a local concert in my district to which I went to take some photos with my old canon 20d and a fixed lens of 20mm.
I always liked to photograph concerts, especially of extreme metal, but this was band Claymore played in broad light :/  I took no more than a hundred shots, I think that if in the days of film we had 36 images per film roll and with two or three rolls we were able to have around 5 good images why not should Ii try to do it again. 

Is not new that with digital we take more photos than we really need so literally we are just wasting the life cycle of the camera and being lazy creatively. Shoot 5 images per second or more per every possible angle is nonsense. Explore your subject from all angles is great but think twice before taking the picture, just like that you will be more critical with your composition and improve your skills.

This is my selection:

 

Inspiration is a bitch.

Inspiration is a bitch. She must be taken, exploited and used as much as needed because there will be times when no idea will come. Days when your canvas will remain blank waiting your brushes be driven by your hand.

Those days are hard. You have something in your head but don't know how to transform into a painting, photograph or a sculpture. You walk around, sketch but all is garbage.

Some try help with wine, beer, drugs, sex, yoga, long walks to sort the ideas but all is useless. You end tired and hopeless, questioning if you deserve to be called an "artist" or if you even are one and not just a "wanna be".

"Inspiration" won't come to you so easily. You must pay for it. Pay with your insecurity, fear, happiness and dreams. You must sacrifice your time with friends, boyfriends, family and your time to be with just with yourself" only after that you will be able to create as God. Creativity will flow through hands. It is a force that pushes you to paint, write, sculpt, photograph, etc at any given moment. You will express whatever you have inside your soul as joy or doubts. It won't be rational anymore, now is time to let your feelings be exposed without fear.

But as she comes, she goes. She serves for a limited time only. You cannot retain her. She is not yours and never was. That is why when she is pleasing you make the most of her. If you are weak or not ready for the intensity of her grace then don't force it. You may hurt yourself and your beloved ones. But if you are ready then don't rest. You will be on ecstasy and your creations will have magic.

After she is gone you won't be the same. You will see what you have done and finally will have some inner peace. You will be able to recognise your own demons no longer needing to run away from them and that will set you apart from the rest of men and women.

She has shown you a door of infinite options. Now you need her again and start over.

The greatest artist ever born!

Once upon a time there was a boy that dreamed to be an artist, be famous, get tons of money for a single painting, get laid with pretty girls and paint with total liberty whatever he had on mind.

He went to an art school. There he learned about the masters: Michelangelo, Donatello, Leonardo and Rafael. His idols from childhood, the ninja turtles. Life could not be better.

a brno Girl - Zdenka

I while ago I had the opportunity to photograph a very versatile, pretty and interesting person, Zdenka.
Like most Moravian girls she irradiates confidence, charm and elegance.
The photosession lasted approximately 2.5 hours. We did as you can see a diverse type of pictures, from some casual portrait to some provocative. I hope you like these portraits.

Some old digital art work

Broken heart.

Murdering # 2

When you try to dream.

A day in the beach # 2.

Intimacy v 3.1

The following images are based on my series Intimacy.  The drawings on them are indeed scratches and I did them because these prints did not come out as I had expected and I am not into throw prints to the garbage.  I had this photos stored approximately two years since I print them because I knew I had to do something with them, but I did not know what.

Sometimes, you may have random ideas in your head but from there until make them reality may a take a while. Ideas and inspiration are just a small percentage of the creative process, the rest is real work, take the brushes a start to paint, grab the clay and start to shape it or take your camera and go out to take photographs and from there look at your work and redefine it. It is normal that you start with idea A and during the process it evolve to B and you may finish with C.

With these photographs my ideas ranged from cut them all in small pieces and make some kind of collage to make a single image-portrait, kind of Frankenstein, or to paint them, get some dry flowers and photograph them all together. At the end I went for something more simple as drawing on them but with a cutter.

 

I wanted to give them some mystery with symbols and texts that are related to my life experience. Saying that, you as spectator may have a different interpretation than me of for example of the spiders in the parachuting which is fine for me. In anyway, with each image there was a basic idea that carefully I had to polish before I start the scratching because I cannot undo a scratch! With some photos the drawing was fast but others few it took me up to two days before I could say it is completely finished. As I said, few moments of inspirations, longer periods of hand work.

 

Some of these photos did not pass my final selection to Intimacy series. Therefore in some way I am "recycling" images that I like a lot but otherwise would have finished buried in my archive. After all, photographs are to be seen. Don't they?

I think, this is something that actually everybody should try with prints that don't like or did not came out as you wanted. I mean, instead of throw money (prints) to to the garbage, give your photos a second chance and make a piece of art with them.